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Jul. 6th, 2006 08:24 pmDude, I could play on that My LJ portal thingy forever. Customization steals my soul.
Once again, my paid account is about to expire and I'm overdrawn. I will miss my userpics. :( Hopefully I'll be able to pay again at some point.
I think I might be driving my father into an early grave. I seriously think he's just cracking. Why he feels the need to overreact about every action I take is somewhat understandable to me - oldest child, his little girl, compensating for crazy mom stuff. I think I am being pretty shitty, however. I should stop.
Unfortunately, my general apathy has spread so far as to even cover my relationship with my parents. Not to be campy and angsty about it, but being with people who have issues and talking about their issues and my issues and their issues with my issues is just too much... stuff. I'm not a big fan of stuff right now, mainly because there's so much of it around.
I wish I could sleep. I'm out of valerian, which sucks. I'm also coming up on what will most likely be a quite painful weekend without any Percocet, seeing as how I was dumb enough to leave the bottle on my desk last time I went home. Went back to get it the other day, and - shocking - it managed to grow legs and walk away. I didn't think Mom would go so far as to just outright take it, but there you go. I guess I'll just take extra Advil and find things to keep myself busy.
I think Sarah and I have settled into a comfortable plateau of sorts. We're not fighting during every conversation on the phone anymore. She agreed to make her own decisions about staying with her family and not worry about my opinion on those decisions. I agreed not to dwell on the possibility of her staying away in return.
Of course, I lied. Bet she did too.
At least there will be pirates tomorrow. ^-^
Once again, my paid account is about to expire and I'm overdrawn. I will miss my userpics. :( Hopefully I'll be able to pay again at some point.
I think I might be driving my father into an early grave. I seriously think he's just cracking. Why he feels the need to overreact about every action I take is somewhat understandable to me - oldest child, his little girl, compensating for crazy mom stuff. I think I am being pretty shitty, however. I should stop.
Unfortunately, my general apathy has spread so far as to even cover my relationship with my parents. Not to be campy and angsty about it, but being with people who have issues and talking about their issues and my issues and their issues with my issues is just too much... stuff. I'm not a big fan of stuff right now, mainly because there's so much of it around.
I wish I could sleep. I'm out of valerian, which sucks. I'm also coming up on what will most likely be a quite painful weekend without any Percocet, seeing as how I was dumb enough to leave the bottle on my desk last time I went home. Went back to get it the other day, and - shocking - it managed to grow legs and walk away. I didn't think Mom would go so far as to just outright take it, but there you go. I guess I'll just take extra Advil and find things to keep myself busy.
I think Sarah and I have settled into a comfortable plateau of sorts. We're not fighting during every conversation on the phone anymore. She agreed to make her own decisions about staying with her family and not worry about my opinion on those decisions. I agreed not to dwell on the possibility of her staying away in return.
Of course, I lied. Bet she did too.
At least there will be pirates tomorrow. ^-^
