head hurts. chocolate milk.

Man, I'm tired.  My head is also pounding.  I've got to get myself off of the caffeine again.  Maybe that should be my goal this weekend.

Speaking of this weekend, 3 days off!  Yay!  And then, after that, Meridan is on a morning schedule and I no longer have to stay up until 11pm every night.  I do have to take the bus home every day, but I'm not gonna sweat that.  It's only an hour's ride.

The laptop from work is really nice.  I miss it not having all the programs that I like, but it's not such a big deal.  Meridan's computer works well enough to use for those programs, but the library one is much better for word processing, which is what I need right now.

My brain is just fried this week.  I had to stop doing my psych homework halfway through last night because it was just taking too much mental energy.  It wasn't hard or anything, but I was just so sleep deprived.  That'll all be better next week.

I'm getting Mondays off soon, though.  Meridan's new schedule is Tuesday through Saturday, so I really wanted to be off with him Mondays, plus being here 5 days a week for only 4 or 3 hour shifts seems like so much hassle.  My boss gave it the okay starting February.

The class schedules are up now, and I think I'm going to take 20 credits in spring.  Meridan will be gone to the forest, so I'll have a lot of free time, and if I do a couple quarters of 20 credits, I can apply to the Western teaching program early.  Plus, I'll be able to keep going with Japanese that way.

School business.  I know it's not exciting, but it's what's on my mind.  Bleh.

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I cannot fucking believe that there are Taco Bell commercials claiming that you can LOSE WEIGHT while eating their food.

I get it.  Fresco menu.  Right.  It's still Taco Bell shit!  Jesus, the air in that place adds calories to normal food!  I accepted Subway, but this is just ridiculous.  Go ahead, claim you have some stuff on your menu that's not completely crap.  That I can accept.  But DIET FOOD?

Sigh.

Also, Biggest Loser?  Gum = not a weight loss food.  Or a food at all.  Thx.

Okay.  Time for dinner, and then I have to finish this fucking homework.  I am a lazy bitch.

oh, just ignore this.

It's week 2 of school, and I'm already freaking out about next quarter.  Sigh.

Y'know, it's not easy starting over.  I mean, that's what I'm essentially doing.  Not a damn thing I did at Evergreen helps me in getting this degree at all.  Part of that is my fault - I did originally plan on teaching high school, not elementary school.  But regardless, I'm suffering now, and though I don't get into it too much, it's extremely stressful.

I'm with kids 10 years younger than me.  I'm taking classes like English 101, which makes me feel fucking ridiculous.  I know I could get out of these classes if I wanted to, but I need as high a GPA as I can manage, and I need these easier classes to pad it.  The program at Western is really competitive, mostly because it's at a Seattle campus and there just aren't many slots available.  

So, at the moment, I have a full load of classes which might not be that hard, but each one has a relatively high number of assignments with a million different due dates to keep track of.  I also have a job to handle that keeps me on my feet for my entire shift, an apartment that I work on keeping clean every single day, cats to take care of, bills that I have to keep track of because I do the banking, grocery shopping to do, a mother whom I have to help with finding another rehab program to go to, a little brother whose schoolwork and homework I'm in charge of tracking and helping with, and a move in two months that I have to plan for. 

I'm tired.  I'm always tired.  A moment never goes by where I can stop thinking about all the things that need to be done.  And I'm somehow supposed to be eating better and exercising during all this.  Yeeeah.

Meridan does what he can.  But he's working full time to take care of things, and he's dead tired all the time as it is. 

I'm wiped out. 

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